Not fitting in....

To my friends:

Haizz...i don't know why i'm saying this but i got to get it out of my chest.This thing kept bugging for years.Three years in fact.Have i told you guys how desperate i want for a bff.I know i had.But have anyone asked why.I know you've had.Anyone ever know the true reason?NO. No one ever knows the real me because no one care.3 years in fact i've been thinking that i don't fit in with you guys.Some prove me wrong but some are glad that i am not with them.People kept saying to me that i fit in with you guys but why you guys kept showing me that i don't fit in with you guys.There's only two people in this world that know my deepest and most darkest secrets that i've been holding in for 3 years.And wanna know what,THEY ARE GUYS WHICH I SELDOMLY WITH.Do not bother asking them what is it because you'll never know until the time is right.Come on there's more to than meets the eye.I know lots of people hate me because i love to tease them or all other crap i don't give a damn.I can't believe it, i will be sharing my secret with some that i rarely talk to(alif) rather than my friends that i spent 2/3 years together.Have you guys ever wondered why?i'll bet no because you guys don't care.no one ever cares.Now you guys know why i need bff because i know they'll appreciate me.Now you guys starting to make me feel that i should be around the guys more rather than you guys.I won't mix with them because i know ican't.It's better if i isolate myself.First thing first,i'm sorry if i kept crawling under you skin but that is just who i am.Haizz.BFF where are you.Please take me away from this people.Wherever you are please show yourself.I can't stand another second with them.Please...


i laugh infront of you,
act like a fool infront of you,
you guys laugh,
i felt happy that you guys laugh,
if i kept quiet,
my existence is not significant,
i will drifted away,
i still remember,
when i was sec 2,
i was sick,
but when i came back,
i saw my lockers are so neat,
my friends helped m clean it,
i'm so thankful,
but now things aren't the
same,
seconds by minutes, minutes,by hours,hours by day,day by weeks,weeks by months,and months by years
friends isolates me,
i don't know why,
no one proves me wrong,
no one,
no one,
no one,
no one...