☺family,friends,gaga,love

It's 6th day of my care-free holiday. i requested for a 1 week break from work due to an unfortunate reason[wink]. this few days,i had been working on my physique. swimming and jogging,not at the same time though,that is crazy even for me. hah not planning to be very buff,but just want to be fit. i'm kinda seeing lots of skinny male models this few days,so yeah being skinnny[healthy] do have it's advantages.

when i was swimming the other day,i don't know,i just stare blankly to the other side of the pool,part of the reason was i'm not wearing my specs so i can't see and the other part of it was,i'm kinda amaze with myself. for all you guys should know that i'm not the type of person who enjoy self-flattery. but when i think about it,my current life is pretty awesome.

i got awesome bunch of F.R.I.E.N.D.S,which i totally can't live without. haha this may sound mushy,but i love each and everyone of them. even if i'm not really close with some of them,they should know i hold them dearly in my sugar-coated heart. I feel like listing all of their names here but,i shouldnt cause haha it might be embarassing for them. they made me to who i am today. even if they dont realise it,they should know that they had contributed alot in my life. it's difficult for me to repay their kindness. i think making them laugh is the only reward i'm capable of. haha to F.R.I.E.N.D.S ,i thank you.well,i have an awesome family,that really supports eventhough they dont understand me that much. i'm proud to be the person i am today.

my parents really taught me alot, to be a respectful young man. my father is the wise one,the one that always teach me to be kind,gracious and always put others before yourself. definitely something that i appreciate and now i'm a pacifist. my mother,always makes me laugh and she's the reason why i like to exaggerate stuff and be a drama mama at times. she constantly reminds me about the things that could destroy my life like smoking,drinking and all the bad stuff that a teenage boy shouldnt do. and finally,my 19 y/o bro. eventhough he had made alot of pretty ass shit decision in life,he is the smartest being i have ever met. his english is always spot-on and very very charismatic. till now i'm unable to say my brother is good-looking,i don't know why. my brother had been protecting me from most prolly the biggest fear that every sec 1 go through,being bullied. well people's misconception of me really put me in a vulnerable state. but my brother protected me from all of this,always assuring me that things will be ok and if anything comes up,i should know who to call. he always accepted me for who i am. siblings bicker,but that is parts and parcel of being brothers. to my family,i thank you.

this may sound stupid but i really really look-up to lady gaga. i know,i know, you guys are prolly rolling your eyes and giving a big sigh but if you guys don't know,her music,her art,her inspiring words really gave a big impact on me. way before i knew lady gaga exist,i was kinda afraid to show my creativity and my true self. i might have not realise this for a long time,but when i saw lady gaga performs,see her wearing artistic clothing and listening to her songs,i began to feel more confident with what i'm doing right now. i began entering her contest and recently i just created something that i am proud of which was this awesome shades. i don't even know that i had it in me. haha. but i'm proud to call myself,a little monster. to gaga,i thank you.

forgive me cause this post just makes you
wanna puke urself,
but i'm truly am grateful
to have this people in my life.
to all,i thank you.

much love,anzahari.