Getting miserable again:]

can't believe it the things i fear most came back to haunt me.
can't believe it the person i've been spending time with just gives you high hopes.
can't believe it,i'm crushed again.
can't believe it that i'm such a moron to be so close to him[s]
can't believe it that i didn't do anything to stop myslef knowing i'll get crushed again.
can't believe it that is just so hard to say "i'm sorry."
can't believe it that two words is just a so hard.
can't believe it that i'm not strong enough.
can't believe it that i just let myself being used again and again and again.
can't believe it that i'm like a toy.
can't believe it that i'm typing this knowing that the person don't even care.
can't believe it that his e-- is to big.
can't believe it that im so so so dumb.
i believe i'm just pathetic.
i believe you could just spit on me.
i believe i could cry but i won't cry for somebody who won't cry for me.
i believe focusing on my study is better than ENTERTAINING this morons.
i believe i'm just ripped up again,its ok,i'll pick up the pieces.
i believe i would just wear my smileyfacedmask to school.
i believe that's the only defend i could put up.
i believe i should bleed but i won't do it.
i believe that fate is cruel on me.
i believe people change but things keep proving me wrong.
i believe staying aloof from all of this is the best way.
i believe.







bff where are you?
please help me.