i'm sick&tired

i'm so sick&tired of bottling up my feeling day after day.
i'm freaking sad to have no one to turn to.
Friends? no,not a chance i won't burden them.
i'm looking for a person to pour out my feeling.
Girlfriend? no been there done that.not gonna happen.
i'm bored at home without no one to talk to.
i'm happy but no one to share the joy with.
Family? no,they got better things in life.
all of my choice leads to a friend.
Already got a friend? yes,but not suppose to be burden.
So who?
BFF? my only option now.
Asking for too much? maybe,but life is demanding.
i'm so pathetic to say all of this.
i'm freaking human too.
Any good candidate? not yet
i'm a sick boy who need my bff.
Aren't you happy in school? yes,but i can't feel that later
i'm desperate and admitting it.
I'm just asking for tto much maybe.
You are happy 24/7? yes,but still i have no one to turn too.
..sigh..
..sigh..
..sigh..
no one dare to step forward.
fine.
don't want your hand,i'll save myself.
current expression?frowning.