.silence.

urgh again and again.
well my best friend told me that if you don't apppreciate me then don't bother.
i just kept quiet to see if you need me.
since you're quiet then i'll guess you don't need me.
that's all i need to know.
erm just thanks for the good laugh ok.
i seriousy wanna get a life now.
i'm walking on my own route now.
sorry if like,this is harsh.
i just think that you don't need me.
well you make it look like it seem.
erm i'm pathetic am i.
just insult me i don't care.
i'm over-reacting?
yes i am.
i'm not any typical boys.
this is freaking hard for me.
if you ain't changing,i ain't gonna change either.
i hate myself for hating you but it's kinda fact.
you're just another person who care about yourself more.
i thought you can change the ego thing.
but i see you not giving it a try.
rather you make my life hell with it.
i let out my hand but you just don't want to take it.
fine.
then don't expect it to come by again.
i'm sick of being the one mengalah everytime.
now L.A.H.H is my sweetest medication.
i felt bad but this feeling is the first side-effect of forgetting.
you won't felt a thing once you read this cause ego is your skin.
wasted my seconds in school talking to you.
i'm focusing on people who appreciate me.
everytime i try to make an effort to appreciate you.
but no everytime i push you out you kept coming in.
boomerang? no. more like a person asking for more attention.
i'm sorry if this is mean.
but it's the fact.
i'm ego?
yes i am.
but i throw it away when im talking to you.
i know you love winning that is why i'll try to lose as many times as possible.
pleasing you a mistake? yes.a big one.
what i get in return? more self-centred attitude.
like you said,"you don't entertain people"
yes,that is the closest to the truth you ever get about yourself.
i'm tired.
sorry.






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