CNY Celebration at Batam:] [late post]

So have to wake up as usual;6.15am.Picked up by my soon-to-be-cousin.He's van was uber comfortable that i decided NOT to sleep in it:] Went to Harbourfront with my auntie and uncle and cousin then have a light breakfast then head to the Boat Terminal[correct right?] Yeah have a very very quick chat with the custom police[haha weird] then off to the Wavemaster^^ The journey was a little draggy.I spent 45 mintues tilting my head and when i woke up,it hurts like hell.I was kinda freaking out going to Batam after hearing lots of bizarre incidence that happen to our fellow singaporeans there.Freaky!! So the custom was very small and cute. Ok,our trip were very easy flowing as we got a tour van to drive us anywhere. Kinda pumped up to see our hotel:] Had alot of laughs in the van.Tried our best to speak indon haha kinda lame and all messed up.We even messed the drivers name,i believe his name was Pak Mul.Because of lack of ear digging,we the one who give the uncle a name.My mom called him 'Pak Abu'.My bro called him'Paul Mall' and i called him 'Pak Wul'.Haha he didnt seem pissed about it. Journey to the Panaroma Regency Hotel was very interesting and funny. There's alot of massage parlor and people riding on motorcycle with 3/4 passengers. Haha scary and dangerous.There's Seoul Garden there but it looked kinda messed up.So yeah reached the hotel.Looks grand and expensive;ratings 7/10.

The garden outside the hotel were pretty breathtaking somehow.BUT we weren't allowed to check in early because of dont-know-the-reason-was;bittersweet.So yeah we decided to go and sightseeing first before checking in.We went to their 'mall' which looks kinda,haiyo don't want to say lah.The journey there were very terrifying because the streets looked deserted 0.0 Seriously,the shops all were close and the construction site that were nearby were empty. Haha,at the mall we decided to go to the supermarket.My mom and auntie got this mission to buy this Soy Sauce that cant be found in singapore[rolling my eyes] All of the price were very very cheap.I bought nothing actually.Most of the money were spend on toiletries[hahahaha] The shampoo were very cheap and it would be like for guys-who-loves-wax to be there as the price of one wax were like $1 or $2[hahaha] After buying all that stuff.Went to eat a Nasi Padang called the Mak Eteh.I had a bad feeling about going to there.

First,i'm not a fan of nasi padang.
Second,i'm very unsure on how they cook the meal
Third,i don't really trust local shops at Batam,especially when they serves food
Fourth,i'm very scared of what i'm gonna eat

So we reached there.When i saw the shop,my mouth fell to the core of the earth.It's not where i really wanted to eat.The place was a little dirty and haiyo,it's very unpleasant.My cousin got the pic of the shop[hope she's updating soon] So we sat at this long table.All were feeling unsure especially me.

Catch this:
We're not suppose to order anything.We will be served with alot alot alot of dishes and the rule is,YOU TOUCHED THE FOOD,YOU'LL PAY FOR IT.So the waiter came holding more then 15 plates with only two hand.Yes let me repeat that,15 PLATES WITH ONLY TWO HAND.They stacked it in a very elaborate way.So,drop,and you're dead.

So the food arrived,and when it were being served on the table,my appetite swam back to Singapore.Omg,it was pretty horrifying[but it's still food] Study the picture below for reference.

Btw,the dish on top of the two eggs,are birds not chicken.Yes,BIRDS! THEY TOLD US WHEN ME AND MY BRO WERE HALFWAY EATING IT.In a weird twisted way,it tasted good.

There cow brains and some black meat on the table.I ate two dishes only which is the egg curry and the BIRD.After an unsatisfying meal,the bill came and wanna know how much it was? 1 MILLION RUPIAH=100+ SINGAPORE! Kinda pissed but at least there's food. So went to the Ralph Lauren Polo shop.Nothing interesting.Pak Mul told us that there will be people selling knick-knacks outside so if you have no interest in buying it,DON'T EVEN LOOK AT IT AND WALK AWAY. CAUSE THIS GUY MEAN BUSINESS.SCARY HAH. After that,went back to the hotel and me and my bro had a nice nap before continuing our journey again at night

Woke up around 5pm[indonesian time].Wash up and took some pics with my bro[i know it's about time] Haha:]

So then went to Mega Mall! Finally civilisation:] We were freaking excited to have a proper dinner.As we step out of the van.The first thing that caught our attention was the A&W. I almost tear up haha[over eh] So decided to camwhore with the bear and had a scrumptious din din:]

NOW TELL ME IF THIS DOESN'T LOOK APPETISING! I SHALL PUNCH YOU RIGHT IN THE FACE:] The Root Beer Float in a gigantic mug,the golden crisp curly fries and chicken and the heavenly taste of its vanilla ice cream sends your taste buds to a trip to heaven^^

15 minutes later:]

Singaporeans was here:]

After getting our bloated,decided to shop.Didnt bought anything.My bro bought a Levi's plaid shirt which was uber cheap,comparing the price there with singapore's.It was like $30+ Singapore Dollars.How cheap is that.Not sure what both of my parents bought.I got my eyes on this Burberry sling bag which was very very very very very cute but i wasn't sure that it looks good with any of my clothing so *TEEET*

After a tiring trip we decided to head back to our hotel. Before we check in our room,we went to this gross bazaar which sells everything people don't want to buy.Then head to a closing Indonesian version of tampines mart and bought us some drinks before checking in. *yawn* then we hit the sack and ZzzzZzzzz:]
Day 2

We were punped up to experience some hotel activities which was swimming,jacuzzi,gym and sauna:] I went for a swim and my mom and auntie and my soon-to-be cousin were doing something valled 'Aerobic' which was weird because the music played were a dangdut song:] So three of them gelek-gelek only^^

Before taking a swim,i had my own fun with my camera:]

The view were very breathtaking.It almost makes me feel happy looking at the developing country grew:] So after a few laps with my uncle and cousin and dad,changed and went for a hotel breakfast.We were the only family there so,all of the dishes were OURS MUAHAHAHA. The food was alright.After breakfast,we packed our bag and check out.

But the trip was not over yet.We kanak-kanak ceria took some group shots:]

my dearest cousins/auntie/uncle

The one with the blue plaid shirt hugging my brother is Pak Mul:]

We decided to go to the Crackers/Keropok shops.They were alot of kids begging for money which really hits me.

Catch this:
I am the type that usually don't like letting people down especially small kids.So there was this small boy around the age of 9 to 10 y/o,came up to me and ask me for money.The tour guide told us not to give any money or the whole group of kids will surround us asking for money too[i think] The small boy look directly at me and i looked at him back.I said to him 'maaf ya dek' .After hearing that,he gave me the most dissapointed face i had ever seen in a small kid's face.It freaking hits me hard and my brother clarify to me that this kid were actually force to this thing.There were 2 teen that was around our age and wearing really nice clothes there really made me feel uneasy.

So we left the place and the scenario that happen to me still bothers me.Anyway, we decided to be thrifty and have a cheap lunch.My mom were all worked up with Mee Bakso,so we went to this mee bakso shop.The place were ok,not as bad as i expected.Most of the thing in the menu we don't understand but we still tried it and YES IT WAS FREAKING DELICIOUS.The meat were very peculiar to us because the previous time we ate meat,it was BIRD.Not bothering about what we were eating,i just continue eating. Then when we looked to our left,there was this big sign showing the Mee Bakso and there were a big caption above it saying "BAKSO MALANG"
i was like 0.0 we're so dead... haha

Then we head to a mall which the name i don't know.It was for muslimah so my cousin and auntie and mom go cuckoo over the tudongs and kain.So -fast forward- and did i tell you that we met another cousin of ours there haha what a small world indeed:]

Our last destination was at Batam City square.The place was ok and lots of excitement.Decided to walk around its Indonesian version of Popular.I bought a pencil,file and a wallet [hahaha how pathetic can i be]

Catch this:
Me and bro and cousin went to the toilet.Upon waiting for the lady to finish,my bro challenge me to a jumping contest and the objective was to touch the signboard that was dangling.So my bro went first and he did it.Then the pathetic thing happened,there were a group of girls across the hallway,watching us.Then they cheered for me and my brother 0.0 WEIRD HAH. SICKO.

Went to Hypermart and bought lots of Mie Sedap which was so sedap haha:] Then have a late lunch at BFC yes let me repeat that BFC.It's a twisted version of KFC.Best Fried Chicken haha:]


Then bye bye Batam and hello Singapore:] The trip was fun and worth it!And for more pictures please do visit my Cuzzy Ernie's Blog:] lots of funny vids and pics^^

Standing up:]

Let me start my post with three words
"WHAT THE FUCK"
I can't believe spammers still exist.

Now with the exams,people losing their jobs and some even dealing a death of a loved one,
'people' still have the time to spam and make life feels much
worst and pathetic.
I got two words for the spammers out there,
"SCREW YOU"

Do you know how low have you stood when you spam someone.
The first is the fact that,you don't dare to admit who you are
and try your best to stay anonymous hoping to that you'll
get away with it.
But somehow you're forgetting about this force of nature,
that you can't see but it knows the bad deed that you have done
and will avenge that you.

"KARMA"

Some people might not believe it,but it's the most
inevitable thing in life that you don't
even realize sometimes that it's karma.
You might not believe in karma,
but somehow you don't have too,
in order to get it.
It's an unseen force and most probably
the explaination why the world is round.
"Because what goes around,comes around"

So to spammers out there,i welcome you to spam anyone,
and anyone who's being spam,i advice you to
stay calm and let karma takes its toll on them.

Farewell my dear spammers,
maybe the last letter you typed while spamming
could cause you to be left in a pit of misery.

Qin,just give in to fate,aite bestie:]

This innocence,is brilliant:]

Anza kalau kau nak biseng kluar dari kelas ni:]

i dont know why in that picture my armpit looks dark:]
it's not in real life sia 0.0
[stop laughing!!]
what could be more relaxing than hunting for treasures while wearing
an apek singlets and scooby-doo boxers:]
just so bored ah no pic^^

Wah today diyana never come so sedeh seh at class:[ nehmind ah got haz,haf,kiki and others
gerek already! Haha get well soon diyana^^

Oprah's Parody:] spot the ironies^^

the boomerang is back

Never Thought Part 3

wow i sucks at english but i try at least.Sorry if my english sucks.Really sorry:[

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15 July 2007

"Brad,get the fuck off me!" I laughed like it was the funniest joke i had ever heard.Brad chuckled showing those deep dimples that seems very fake.I never realised that Brad's eyes looks very brownish.The sunlight heats my bare leg and hair.Slowly,i pushed him away by pushing my palms towards his chest.I gaze the open sky for a moment.The sky never fail to amaze me with its wide spread of light blue with a dash of soft white cloud with peculiar shapes that could never be seen the same when it's dispersed as the wind blows it away.My salty sweat drips down my untrimmed fringe that cover almost half of face.The strong wind blew the sand on the field causing the field to look brown rather than green.I lifted my heads up and pick up the wait of my abdomen.Brad were standing next to me,bending down towards me."Hey Alex,you ok? Sorry bout the bruise," When Brad accidentally hits me on the ground i almost forgot half of the thing happen that morning.The bruise on my leg looks fine to me eventhough it hurts alot.The agonising pain not seems to bother me.Brad slowly lifted me up with both of his hand.His firm hand,grabbed my armpit and hip."Come on,you don't look ok to me." As i stand on my feet,a wave of pain attacks my body. I groan in pain. My eyes began to squint as the pain were excruciating.Brad expression began to change from a friend to a worried mom.He wrap my hand around his neck and hold my hip.I can't believe that a small bruise could be able to make my body suffer.Slowly,i limped out of the field with Brad.

"What the fuck! You just gonna let us get beaten by these bafoons! Come on man,Alex can handle himself!" said one of my classmate who i don't really care about.

"Shut the fuck up Drake! He's in pain because of me and i rather lose than leaving Alex just like that!"

"Brad...It's alright.I know how much you wanna trash those 2/4 class.I'll be ok..."my voice almost sounds like i was about to tear up.

"You don't crap around with me!My best friend,my fault,i'm the one responsible for you"

".....Thanks Brad.Seriously....i mean it."

"Come on.I got your back."

Present

Brad hang on i'm coming.The dried up tears began to make my face sticky.The coldness of the night did not seem to bother me.I sprint across my void deck and into the big park.There's a strange pounding in my heart.Eventhough i was almost dead beat,i kept on running.The strong bond that i had with Brad is fueling me up.The quicker i ran,the more adrenaline my body produce.Brad,the only one that helped me in every crap in life,was about to catch his last breath and i'm still not beside him,holding his hand for the last time.Brad is in pain and i'm not there for him.I ran as fast as my legs could carry.The sweat drips in my eyes causing a slight sting in my eyes.I still didn't let it bothers me because in this very moment,he's suffering.

6 January 2008

"Happy Birthday my super duper awesome friend!"

"Brad! It's freaking 12 in the morning dude.Can't you just talk to me tommorow?"

"Oh...you're sleeping.I thought you're up! Well...you know what...i don't fucking care if you're asleep or not! I got something to say and i really want to say it as soon as possible.Hmm...i just wanna have this time to say that you're the only thing that kept me going in life.Without looking at my best friend's face for a day would be torture for me.I wanna thank you Alex for all the fun time you had with me.It sure made my life much fun after my father's death.Now,not having a dad to share my happiness,really sucks,but you sure know how to make me smile everytime with your crappy love life.I appreciate everything you did for me and i hope that this friendship will go on no matter what.I don't really have a present to show you how much you means to me and hope with this,you could see how happy i am when you're born.Thanks Alex,for everything."

"....Wow....I'm truly am....honoured that i means alot to you....You don't really have to give me a gift Brad.Seeing you in every moment of my school life is rewarding enough.Thanks"

Present

I'm about to reach the entrance of the park.My eyes were locked to the park.I can't see Brad.Where the fuck is he? My whole body began to shiver as i get closer to the gate.The road were empty and the sound of my slipper tapping on the pavement make a guard dog nearby to bark.The moonlight shine on the playground making my vision much clearer.My eyes scan everywhere for Brad."Brad! Where are you?! Brad!" My lung almost burst. The tear came back down.I was crying more than i was shouting.Without hesitation,i dash towards the tree where i'm suppose to meet Brad.Through the small bushes and into the little grassland.The sharp branches cuts my arm causing me to bleed.I grip my wound to prevent it from bleeding.I think the pain i'm experiencing right now is not even close to the impending pain when i'll set my eyes on Brad's cold body.The strong wind blew stronger.I can still hear the dog's bark.As i approached the grassland,i stare at the tree,it was deserted.All i can see was the long trunk and the long lushes branch of the tree but no Brad.The urge of me to find out grew stronger. How can he walk away while he's injured? I stepped on the wet grass and walk towards the tree in astonishment.The droplets on the grass sips into my slipper."Brad...Where are you?" Part of me felt happy that i did not have to see his dead body but the curiousity builds up.I inspect the tree carefully.I sat near the big roots,staring blankly to nowhere.I was confused.I'm very sure that Brad was in need of my help but he's not here.Quickly,i took out my phone and called Brad.After 12 or 10 rings,i cancel it.My arms were crossed to keep me warm from the cold night.i look at my watch,and it shows 7.57pm.Brad just called mintues ago.Why didn't he answer my call? Tree accompanied me through the night.Slowly,i rest my self against the tree trunk.The tranquility of the night ease my worry.Exhaling the fresh air relaxes me for a moment.The smell of wet grass and the sound of leaves filled the empty park.I can't believe it,i'm still calm eventhough i don't know where the hell is Brad.I call Brad's home immediately.After a few ring,i hung up.There's nobody home.Why am i feeling so calm when my best friend gave me a frightening phone call saying that he needs help and he's not here?! Maybe,it's because i felt too relief not seeing his dead body.I stood up and wipe the grass that's sticking on my butt.My eyes scan the grassland again like a security camera.I sighed and began to walk away from the tree.I'm dissapointed,worried,nervous,tired and pissed. I drag my foot out of the grassland hoping to meet Brad tommorow in school. The playground is empty like a graveyard.My vision were being blocked by the thin fog.I'm not in the mood to be home.So i sat on the swing and began to playback what happen with me and Ivana.I believe Ivana was about to tell me something important.But when it comes to this,Brad is far more major then her.I hold out my phone and search for Ivana's name in my contact.Should i call her? Maybe i should,she seems very serious about it.

As i was about to call her i heard a hissing sound behind me."Psssstt...........Go...to...the...tree" It sounded like someone familiar.I quickly get up and look around like a mad women that just lost her son.I can see anyone.There was only the empty playground and me.The strong wind blew the sand causing my slipper to be very uncomfortable."Go...to...the...tree" My jaw began to shiver. Without hesistation,i ran back to the tree.I was scared.It's better to run away then to be attack by a person i can't even see.I reached the small grassland again but this time,i saw a small light flickering.The yellow light dance with the wind gracefully.I walk towards the candle knowing that is going to be something bad.But i was wrong,it was a small cake with a candle on top.It's white and creamy,it must be vanilla.My brain began to filled with big question mark.The cake was nicely been put under a small mat.I squat down towards the cake to examine the words written with frosting.It was dark,and i barely could read it."Hap...Happy...Ann.." The last part of the sentence were far from the candle so the letter was hard to be seen.What could this mean? 'Happy' what? "It says happy anniversary you moron" My eyes open as wide as it can be.That's not me.I was about to turn around and punch the person's crouch but the person sounded like Brad. Swiftly,i stood up and try to catch a glimpse of the person by looking at the person from the corner of my eye.The stranger seems to be the same height as me.Somehow,he smells like someone familiar.Terrified,i turn around.

I almost scream my lungs out when i my eyes set upon his brown eyes and flawless face.It was Brad.Without thinking,i hugged him.It seems like i miss him for million of years.My arm wrapped around his body.He chuckled a little.He doesn't know how happy i was to see his face again.It was almost to unreal.My chin was on his shoulder.He touched my back.I was almost about to hug him until he was unable to breathe.I could never forget how he smells like.I was almost breatheless. My bad thought of him being dead and myself being all alone seems to fade away.Brad is here.He's real and here right now.

"Hey what's up with all the hugging."

"Shut the fuck up! I thought you're fucking dead!" i pulled myself away from Brad.

"Gotcha"He giggled

"I was just playing with you! Chill dude!"

"...you don't know how pathetic i was knowing that you're in trouble!"

"Sorry.I just want you here for a celebration.You forgot?"

"Wow,when you say you're dying i almost forgot my name.Hmm what about today?" i shrugged

"Alex...Alex...How could you forget about our third anniversary with our Old Oak"

"Old Oak?...Oh yeah the tree...I thougt...What's today's date?"

"17 May 2008 sir-forgets-alot!"

"What the fuck! How could i forget about today? Crap...I'm so sorry"

"That's aite.I almost forgot too but when i was walking to school with you,i remember.During recess i didn't ran to you because i want you to be away from me for just few hours.I ditched Jeff and Carl after that.I felt so guilty for leaving you just like that Alex.Then after school,i ran to the nearest bakery.This all may seems corny but to tell you the truth,i don't know how to show a person that i appreciate them.Take this cake as a sign of our anniversary and my gift of apology.I'm so sorry Alex." Brad looks truly sad.

"....Wow....Seriously Brad,i don't know how should i feel.To be mad at you for not telling me this or to be happy you to all this trouble to celebrate Old Oak."

"I know i'm wrong but....i'm sorry Alex...i am..truly am sorry...Alex please...lets get over this and enjoy our lil' party"

"I guess there's no point being angry at you," My frown turns to a warm smile.

After that heart-wrenching conversation,me and Brad rest our body on the trunk and indulge our appetite with the moist vanilla cake.My whole mind felt very relaxed after listening to Brad's explanation.With sweets in my mouth,how could i ever be tensed.Brad just stare at the open sky while singing our favourite.It felt very touching.I just hope that me and Adeline could have this beautiful moment together.My shirt move like a ripple of wave as the strong wind blow. We let the moment sink in.I didn't know Brad can sing.His singing was very melodious and it seem so effortless.The silent between us did not seem awkward,it is rather,relaxing.I lay back and enjoy the wonderful moment.

The next day

Brad was suppose to call me. School is going to end soon and Brad and Ivana wasn't anywhere to be seen. It's such a bummer sitting alone in the classroom,staying aloof from my pathetic classmates. Throughout the lesson,my eyes were fully shut and i kept on drooling. I was a little worried about Brad for not coming to school.He just message me about how fun it was yesterday and that's it.The long needle of the clock is pointing 12 and the smaller one is pointing 1.Five more minutes to go.Miss Romano were patiently teaching the class.Her pencil skirt make her look less appealing and i usually hate they way she said 'class' with her stuck up voice.I tapped my foot against the concrete ground.I want to talk to Ivana badly and i starting to miss Brad's singing.As the bell rings,i quickly stuff all my worksheets in my beg.I haste to Ivana's class.I wasn't really thinking straight.Why do i want to meet that creep again? But after the talk we had yesterday she made me feel curious.My crumpled school uniform makes me look very stupid and unappealing.Sweats began to drip down on my neck.When i was about to turn to the staircase,my body felt a hard impact and i fell to the ground. "Oh i'm so sorry" i apologise to the person that i haven't even looked at.My heart fell to the floor when i saw that familiar raven hair and that perfect lips.It was Adeline."...You moron...watch where you going!" Adeline voice flew right to my ears.I sat on the floor hoping that i was invisible.

Brad

Damn it,where is she.I seriously hope that ditching Alex is worth it.My eyes scan to every corner of the void deck.It has been 20 mintues.I'm starting to worry about Alex.Should i call him and lie to him? After,that night,i'm very sure that what i'm doing now is good for him.Suddenly i heard a soft voice behind me,it was her.

"Sorry i'm late.I making sure that my mom know that i'm sick"

"It's fine...So did you told Alex yesterday?"

"I was about too.Then someone called him and he ran off"

"That was me.I thought i told you not to tell him yet"

"....Brad...i can't keep on puting an act infront of him forever"

"Not forever,just long enough for him to forget about Adeline"

"I'm trying my hardest.Why don't you just tell him about everything? He's your bestfriend"

"....I know but by doing this,it won't hurt him and that's the last thing i want him to feel,hurt"

"Hope so..."

"Thanks Ivana"

when aesophaugus meets uvula:]

woohoo peoples:] i ate like 6 steroid pills and i starting to have a bicep 0.0 hehe kidding lah bitches^^ I seen lots of couple nowadays.Some are cute and some are so not needed but i love the freeshow drama:] Kinda wanna makes me feel to have a girlfriend but too bad,i will be taking my N level this year and having a relationship right now,don't seem like a good idea. I got this dumb theory stuck on my plane-runway head that having a gf means trouble.Well maybe it's worth it but *teeeett* not trying.

Hmm,if i got a girlfriend,i got loads of expectations,wanna read:

-they should tolerate my 10 year old brain
-they should live to drink apple tea and drink apple tea to live
-they should flawless face like me[haha lame]
-they should fart proudly whenever they're 50 feet near me
-they should wear clothes
-they should have hair
-they should make me food when I'm hungry
-they should have no nose hair
-they should love TYRA BANKS
-they should hate stereotypist
-they should have no pimples on their arse
-they should not join all the CCAs that'll make them black
-they should have a bald armpit
-they should love the smell of my sweet&sour smell of my socks
-they should be able to lick their armpits
-they should love cats
-they should not pull their undies that's stuck in their crack when wearing a skirt
-they should be curious about UFOs
-they should be able to stair in my nostrils for 5 minutes without blinking
-they should carry a torchlight whenever we have a night date
-they should watch only cartoons and sitcoms
-they should not be disgusted whenever i eat the food that i dropped from my hand
-they should admit I'm cute
-they should be able to be brave enough to jump around in the mrt
-they should not touch me when I'm drinking apple tea
-they should tell me if they're on menstrual panadol[avoiding]
-they should adore huys with flat butts
-they should not bite my armpit when I'm not looking
-they should be able to breathe in my fart as long as they could [record 0.56s]

i think that's about it.yeah i know,i'm not specific enough,nehmind,i'm very satisfy with the list niwaes.haha so call me if you meet the requirements at 9254-i-love-anza It's gonna be valentine soon hahahaha so what are you waiting for, get the phone ringing :]

Everybody's Fool-Evanescence

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that

never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you've got everybody fooled

look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she

never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled

without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie

i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore

it never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled

it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool

Anza is a descriptive word:]

Hmm i think i'm being extra-duple-duper kind.Who ever saw me getting very 100% angry? I see no one raising up their hand and that's because i never show it. What i most probably do is avoid that person.But sometimes,my act of kindness really makes the people believe that they can just step on my big head.Well i'm standing up for myself now.

If i am given the job to stamp the phrase 'STUPID STEREOTYPIST" ,half of human beings will be labeled. I'm saying all this because the first thing that comes to their mind is,THAT BOY IS GAY/BAPOK/PONDAN. Whenever i heard somehting like this,i would probably laugh by myself seeing a person that have a fully-functional brain saying something that is the most pathetic thing ever.It really cracks me up sometimes.It maybe hurtful but it doesn't pull me down in life.They never seem to take notice that i'm STRAIGHT AS A RULER.Come on,i'm freaking in love with Tyra Banks :]

People just don't believe in people with different personality.The first thing when they saw a guy jumping around and acting soft they will say -buzz- GAY. Haha how more pathetic can people be. When they saw a girl having a dude's hair and shirt they will say -buzz- LESBIAN. Pathetic hah. Whatever it is,i'm not standing up just for myself,i'm also helping the people who experience the same shit i'm going thru.Sometimes it surprises me that EXPRESS student say this crap to. I mean,you're a freaking genius[which i salute] and u still don't know how talk and think at the same time.I can't believe people are proud of u .Maybe u just academically smart but still socially impaired.Haha well i wish this people like this should focus more on their life rather than acting very irrational.Now i should define the name ANZA :]

Definition:Anzahari

He is a mammal that enjoy being around friends and enjoy photography.He's very spunky and bouncy like a spring.He live his life and try his best not to care about people who seems to be annoyed about the way he live his.Guys,don't really get him because he doesn't really communicate well with them.They watch porn while he watch Spongebob.They love girls for their boobs while he love girls for theirself.They play soccer while he jumps around like a ball.But somehow he can adapt with them knowing that they aren't alike because he doesn't look for differences but the similarities.Both of them likes to have FUN.The species that fits well with Anza is Girls.Girls are rather more flexible and easy to understand Anza and that is why girls are most likely to be his choice of friend.Girls are rather fun to be with rather than puffing around with the Guys.Anza try to be himself and avoid what people want him to be because he rather be hated for who he are than to be love for who he aren't.

blublebliahhehah:]

Today was almighty-ly fun:] Spending time with diyana very enjoyable and makes your brain filled with nonsensical stuff that seriously not needed.For example,today,in malay lesson.Cikgu Alia was being very unreasonable with the class rules.One of it was,not to talk while studying.So this big-mouth Diyana have to ask for a tissues at the exact moment where Cikgu Ali was on the verge of slapping us with her long hair.As diyana opens her mouth,Cikgu Alia turn at look at her and shout "DIYANA" *lightning & thunder* Diyana face suddenly turns like this 0.0[literally] and she reply "mengade-ngade sak ni cekgu!" with her 'kopek' face ^^ BAHAHAHAAHA!
Then play around with her tissue 0.0
prangai dasar "ah klakar lah tu" [ij]
Now i'm stuck with lots and lots and lots of homeworks =.=
hooray wak lu!
Ok i'm postponing my Never Thought 3 up to this weekend.
So sawadikap bitches[per sah]

i wanna congrat all you express:] you sure make me feel nervous=.=
[over sah]

Everybody,do it like this,like this,like this:]

Hey wadeh smelling people:] I'm starting to love school. Usually it's a fucking drag whenever i woke up but it's starting to feel very less boring. Well my usual routine is to meet kakak berg,eat some steroid with her then met all my 'kanak-kanak ceria':] Looking at my bitches just crack my ass sia:] Hajar with her i-slept-very-late-yesterday face,hazreena with her corny expressions,mirah with her everlasting untied shoe lace,qin with her kakak-kakak face and liyana with her spice girls wannabe bangs haha:] Yeah now all the malay seat at one corner which i find so fucking gerek haha^^ haz,diyana,kiki,alif,aepul,haf,fawzy is the sex when combined. Now i barely get sleepy if they're around which thank god helps me alot! Now my top fave subject is MOTHER TONGUE^^ Can sit beside gloria[which btw the most noisy substance that ever combined] and crack our head with the fawzy's i-wanna-act-smart attitude haha:] Recess was normal still but there's a biggest change that make me wanna hug mrs.neo! APPLE TEA BITCH! CRAP,FINALLY SCHOOL HAVE SOME SENSE:] I WOULD LIKE TO THANK THE AUNTIE FOR SELLING IT. err don't want to hug the auntie ah =.= Now the INSIDE JOKES is the most pathetic/lame/funny thing that bitches&jerks can come out with to laugh about everyday! ok i tell you some ah:

-nipple ribbon
-______breaktheice
-angkat paiseh
-wire
-mcm gini,mcm gini,mcm gini
-karipap

haha there's more but decided not to tell because very rude[hehe] Now i'm squeezing 1 hour everyday to study at home.N level starting to scare the crap out of me.I'm gonna beat fatty like 100000-0 like that:] This year also the last year for express.I'm gonna miss 20% of them:] Hope you guys will remember us[haha mcm paham] ok now want to watch naruto so bye poopyheads^^

Never Thought Part 2

Sorry this was a little shorter than the previous one,but i will continue more on the next part.

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I began to tremble.I felt my heart stop for a quick second.My breathing began to quicken.The fear in my eyes is able to be seen like an open door. Ivana just looking very calm."Why you get all sweaty? It's just a hunch."She giggled.Somehow she was able to speak out my secrets like there was a teleprompter on my head.My face started to glisten with my own sweat.Ivana,kept on looking at the empty road.She have this scary smile on her face as if she know everything about me.Maybe the next thing she will say is "I know you're jealous because Brad rather spent time with those moron rather than you" The fear that roam around my body like an angry beast began to back down.Suddenly,Brad was all i could think of.Why did Brad left me like that.Does he felt guilty of what he did not do.Why hasn't he call me.The devastation i felt hours ago,seems to haunt me again.I beginning to forget that Ivana is standing right beside me.The way Brad just sat there and watch me get verbally abuse really cuts me deep.Forget about this stalker for awhile. I think i should rather be more concern on Brad rather than this psycho beside me.There were no movement between me and Ivana.We were just standing at the bus stop like a stone under medusa's curse. All the student just walk by us and both of us seems not to care. I look to the left side of the road,hoping to see bus.Usually they are only 15 minutes late but standing beside Ivana makes it feel i've been standing there for hours. I began to wipe off my sweats and reach for my change that Ivana gave me.Without noticing,i accidently touch my side pocket and felt a vibration.I panicked a little.Quickly,i took out my phone from my pocket and stare at the screen. My head went blank when i saw who's calling me.

It was Jeff.Out of everyone in the whole entire world,why is it Jeff.Ivana turn her head towards me and say "You should answer that" Even i wasn't afraid of her anymore,her words still gave me chills.Ivana's bright and beautiful eyes stared at me for a moment and look away.Without hesitation,i answer the phone.

"Ermm...why are you calling?" My voice sounds a little nervous.

"Wow and they say i'm the jerk" His manly voice began to make me feel more nervous.

"What do you want? Haven't insult me enough" The feeling of anger and anxiousness began to collide making my voice sounds weird.

"....Erm....Yeah, about that i'm sorry.I just felt a little bored...No hard feelings...?"

"You,Jeff Coleman,seeking for forgiveness.This must be a prank.If it is,then you doing a great job."

"Fuck it! I try to be nice and you piss me off! Fuck you Alex! I just wanna deliver a message from Brad,he said he'll be meeting you at the station bus in 15 minutes time. His phone died. No need to thank me you moron!"

After finishing his sentence,quickly he hung up.The guilty is starting to devour me.I could feel a sincerity in Jeff and i just didn't know how to react. But the fact is,Jeff has been kicking me in the ass for 3 years and how am i suppose to know he had change with one phonecall.Imagine,someone that tore my PE pants that i left in the class and steal my Chemistry textbook and give back with only 20 pages in it,could somehow become very humble and mellow all of a sudden.It's far beyong impossible.I start to feel less guilty compared on what he did to me. Maybe he deserved that. Maybe he doesn't. After that phone call,i wipe off my sweat on the screen and slide my phone back in my pocket. I was forgetting that there was someone beside me.Someone who i fear.When i turn to the right,Ivana was on the phone too.Her lips looks amazing and almost too perfect.I only overheard the word "home" because her voice was very soft making it hard to hear. She didnt realise i was looking at her. Her sweet scent seems to vanish. I have a good sense of smell.Usually i could smell my mom's Gucci perfume from a distance.Smells usually intrigues me cause it describe how aware you are. I usually spray a little cologne before going to school. It seems pathetic but it doesnt hurt to smell good.Ivana is still on the phone. I'm waiting impatiently for the bus.Tapping my foot and looking at my watch is the most obvious sign of a person being very anxious.Ivana has ended her conversation.She look very pissed.The sadness on her face is so heart-breaking.When i look at her face,it reminded me of Snow,my dead cat.Snow had cancer and eventually he died when i was 11 years old.I still can feel the sorrow that i felt four years ago.I try my best to make my self sounds very sympathetic,"You alright?" I felt a strong urge to move closer to her. She saw me moving nearer to her but she didnt seem to care. "Yeah...I'm alright..."

"Come on,you don't look alright to me."

"I said i'm fine.Why should you care about me?! You should be more concern about that 'innocent' girl,Adeline!"

"...What....what....are you saying?" all confused.

"Sorry...Just leave me alone..." her voice began to tremble.

The bus arrived as if this was all planned.I don't why,but i felt a little guilty.I saw her eyes getting puffy.Just as the bus stops,she walk quickly as if i was about to eat her up.This girl,Ivana Skyler,just love to mess up my mind with her weird actions.I was about to call her on the phone when the bus left.As i was about to fulfill my intention, i heard the most melodious voice coming from the back.It sounds very familiar.It just wasn't me to forget the voice and a very familiar scent.I turn around and it was Brad standing infront of me.My mind just went blank when i saw him.He looks a little sloppy with his shirt tucked out. I am so glad to see his warm smile again.He have the most perfect set of teeth that i ever saw.His dimple and bright smile,makes him look like a model.I cant believe that i missed someone badly when i only didn't see them for a few hours. He broke the silence,

"Hey..."

"Erm...hi."

"...So you got any plans tonight?"

"Not sure.I think i'm pretty much free."

"Awesome.Meet me at the usual place at 7.30"

"Yeah sure..."

He gave me a friendly pat on the shoulder while staring at me with his piercing eyes.He smile and walk off.I just stood there for a moment and smile to myself.Why didn't i felt the strong anger towards Brad like before? Why didn't i scream my lungs out about what he did to me at the canteen? Brad,Brad,Brad you just know what to do when you did something wrong.Show me that innocent eyes and giving me a captivating smile.I began to forgive him.It seems odd to forgive someone without the person saying sorry.But Brad is different from everyone.He is the most kind person i ever met in my life.He usually switch my homework with his to cover my sorry ass from getting detention.If i forgot to bring my lunch money,Brad will seat with me in class and treat me after school. And i never forget the day he save me from getting screwed by a group of gangsters wanna-be.No matter how bad the situation is,i can never hold a grudge towards Brad.The scorching sun was soon covered by a big cloud causing the day to be shady. A gust of wind followed by dried leaves dragging along the sidewalk making strange noises.I just walk away from the station bus and decided to walk home

-7.03pm-

I am still at home getting ready to meet Brad.We're going to our usual place,the small shady area near the playground.We've been hanging out there for 3 years.We just love the peaceful silence and the panoramic view of the sky. It's the most confortable place to share our problems and secrets. It may seems corny but it work for us.Well we rarely share our problems,usually 'i' will be the one shares it.The laugh we had and the joy of being there really means alot to us.I decided to slip on something simple like my t-shirt and jeans.My hair is still dripping from the cold water.I'm run around the house searching for my phone.I have the feeling that Brad has already on his way there.I started to panic.My mom starts to nag at me because it was suppose to be dinner night;it's when my parents and me have dinner together.As much as i hate to miss that,i just don't want to miss the chance of knowing why did Brad didn't do anything during recess.I couldn't take my eyes of the wall clock.Every tick that it makes,makes panic even more. Soon my phone began to ring.I hate it when i'm panicking and the phone rings at the same time.It's just a sign showing that something bad is going to happen.I reach into my jeans and saw a number that i haven't yet save in my phone.The number looks very familiar.Somehow i know i've seen before. I quickly answer the phone.My breathing quickens."Hello?" my voice seems to be the only one to be heard.

"......Hello....Alex? ....it's me"

"Alex here.May i know who is this?"

"....It's me...Ivana...." my jaw dropped to the ground.

"Ohhh."

"Can i meet you for awhile? I got something to tell you"

"I'm kinda,in a hurry."

"....Oh...then meet me at your void deck.Now.I'm here."

"What are you doing under my..."

Just as i was about to ask her,she hung up.Now,Ivana starting to sound scary.First,she know my secrets,second,she know where i live and now she knows the exact block that i lived in.I just stood in the middle of the living room staring at nothing.My mind went blank.All i could think of is who's Ivana? Who's Ivana? Who's Ivana? How does she know everything about me when i only know her name and where she lives? The long needle is pointing 7 and the shorter is pointing 3.I'm going to be late.Without thinking,i rush down to my void deck.While running down the stairs,i kept thinking about Ivana.Like i said,living on the ninth storey and having someone waiting for you,is such an inconvenience.2nd storey,I can almost see the ground floor.As i approach the last flight of stairs,i saw Ivana waiting for me at the end of it.She were crossing her hands and leaning on the white painted railings.She have a beautiful jet black hair.Almost looks like Adeline's.Her long silky hair covered half of her face.Only her nose and chin were visible. She just stood there like a mannequin.The only thing moving were her hair.I climb down the stairs slowly.I was only inches away from her.She turn around and look at me directly in the eyes.

"Glad you came.Can we sit for a moment?"

"Yeah sure.Make it quick,i have something on,"trying my best not to sound rude.

"....The reason i called you here....i just wanna...apologise,for what happen just now."

"Oh about that.Well i'm just a little shocked.Would you mind telling what happen? If it's ok with you."

"......Alex.....I think you should know....Well i'm..."

Ring goes my phone,the grudge with me and alarms still had not rest.Ivana was about to mention something that may sound very important and could be the answer to everything that's going on but i chose picking up a phone rather than that.Ivana seems pissed off by my action and just stare at me with her magnificent face.Before answering the phone,i check my watch to find out that it was 7.38 pm.It's starting to be a habit for me to be late.I press the answer button without looking at the caller id."Hello" i began the conversation.

"Hello...Alex...Help me! I think i can't hold on any longer!....Hurry up! Help me Alex..."

"Hello! Hello! Brad! Brad! ....Hang on! Gosh! What's happening Brad?!" i was screaming on the phone.

The call ended and Brad left me almost in tears.The word 'death' was the only thing left in my mind.Every single word he said is like a sword stabbing through me.Brad can't die,he can't.He's the only person in the world that could understand every single thing i experienced in life.Losing him will be like losing a big piece of my heart.I stood absolutely still and without noticing,my eyes started to pour out tears.I was too devastated by the major news that my soft cry turns to a loud mourn.How can he die like that? Don't he know i need him? No Brad,don't leave me just like that. Every single breath i took just makes it worst.I will trade anything, and i mean anything for Brad to live once again.I can't imagine going there and looking at a corpse that once were my best friend. Now,my tears started to trickle on my clothes.I can't believe how much i am crying now.Wrath and devastation collides in my brain causing a vortex.My body stood cold and i didn't care about the people passing by me.I must try my best to save Brad,i must. Brad was a brother that i never had.We share laughters and joy. Talk about nonsense at the canteen and have a good laugh whenever we left the canteen.Brad never fails to make me cheerful in school.He's like the blood in my veins and arteries.How i really wish i could see him alive and this was all a joke.Swiftly,i turned around and i run as fast as i could,leaving everything behind me,even forgetting what Ivana going to say to me.Right now,at this moment,no other thing matters other than Brad.Brad, i need you,hang on i'm coming.

New pic baybeyyy:]

Never Thought 1 :]

ok like i said i'm gonna make a online story.In fact i did. I got approval from my bestie to see if it was good and she seems to enjoy it.So i wanna see how this goes.Enjoy the first part:]
[UBER UBER SORRY IF MY GRAMMAR AND USES OF VOCAB SUX]

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There she was standing infront of me.I could feel her cold breath on my lips.Her chest were close enough to feel her heartbeat.The more close we get,the faster it beat.My heart started to race as she gaze upon me.I'm starting to feel confuse.Is she real?Her piercing black eyes,long raven hair with a neat lock of fringe and luminescence skin makes it feel unreal.It was just to good to be true.I thought i don't ever existed in her life.I can't believe it the girl i admired since Sec 1 standing so close to me.This is by far the closest.I touched her actually but that was by accidet,and still she doesnt know i'm alive.Her soft cheek slides gently on mine and she whispered "you know i've been waiting for this for quite awhile". Her low and calm voice intrigues me and my body starts to heat up.For the first time i felt intimidated to a girl and the ironic thing is,she is the one that i fantasised to be a lover with.I felt insecure.Her hand soon were roaming on my back.My Bossini t-shirt soon were crumpled as she drags her long nails across my back.Somehow,it felt seductive rather than pain.I can't help it but to be slave under her seductive clutch.My breathing gets shorter by the moment.Soon her enchanting face is all the eye can see.That full and pouting lips,makes me go crazy on the inside.Usually lipgloss 'was' a turned off for me but tonight it's an acception.She grinned and say lowly "Don't worry.No one's looking." Her lips were so close to mine.I could smell the sweet-scented strawberry lipgloss of hers.Her eyes soon were lock shut and her lips move towards mine.My mind were going to explode when i saw what she was gonna do.I can't believe it,the girl i've been admiring about for 3 years has finally acknowledge my existance and that girl is about to kiss me. I move towards her lips when suddenly a loud buzz break the silence.

My eyes popped open and i was in the verge of killing someone.She was about to kiss me goddamn it.I really was pissed.Fucked up,i threw the alarm clock.Actually i aim for the laundry basket to avoid waking my parents up.Reluctantly,i get off bed quicker than i thought.Well having that dream just make me so pumped up to see her face again.I wonder if the dream gonna came true.If it does,i will....i don't know i never thought i can go that far.My parent were sound asleep and glad that they are.Usually they went all Aunt Flow on me after received their bills the previous day.Quietly,i move to the toilet. I look in the mirror for a moment.I don't know what's wrong with me today but suddenly got the urge to stare at myself.I observe my hair.It still bothers me when i see my hair looks way better before i took a shower.Kinda fucked up.Makes me feel not to shower for the whole year.I face the shower and let the warm water flow down my body.After getting ready,i called Brad,my best friend since the Sec 1 orientation camp.He was the only person i depend on in secondary life.Smart,good-looking,funny and a crackhead like me,perfect enough to be my best friend.Well we do fight but somehow the friendship we had will clean up the shitty mess.I'm just glad that he's around to help me with the 'crush' crap.Like,who's the only peron in the world will listen to me talk non-stop about a girl.I started to giggle by myself not realising the phone is ringing."Hey Alex,where the fuck are you! I've been sitting down here watching bus go by for 15 minutes! Hurry up man! Get your ass down here quick!"Brad said loudly.That guy almost broke my eardrum.I ran down the stairs quick.It is such a inconvenience to live on the nine story and be late while a friend is waiting.I was panting cause the last time i ran was from a dog and it was two days ago.3rd story,sweats started to drip a little bit.I stopped for a moment to catch my breath.I really should follow Brad jogging sometimes.But, sweating is just wrong for me.I began to ran and without realising i stumbled upon a girl.She was wearing a blue uniform so i assume she wasnt in the same school as me.I almost hit her like a truck and a gonna-be roadkill."Oh im so sorry.I'm in the rush." She just smile and walk up the stairs. I never seen her before. She looks very charming with her ponytail and her dashing smile. I almost want to ask her name but that impatient moron is waiting for me downstairs. I slowly walked down the stairs and i know she's looking at me from the corner of the eye. Ground floor,there's that moron is sitting at the bench with his mp3 on,looking aloof towards his surrounding.He turned at me with his dark eyes,looking at me like he was about to tear me limb to limb.Brad looks suave with his coiffed hair and his flawless skin.I almost thought that Brad is a robot because he looks too perfect today. He walk towards and we walk to school.

"So what time you went to bed last night?" Brad ask me while his eyes were staring at my messy hair because i just ran.

"Ermm...like about 10.30 or somewhere around there.Fuck,stop looking at my hair.I ran because of you moron."

"Aww i'm touched"

"Fuck off Brad" i chuckled

"Hahahaha! So how's your girlfriend?" he ask sacarstically.

"Crap,i don't have a girlfriend!"

"Then what about,you know,Adeline,the girl from class 3\2?" a smirked began to be seen on his bright face.

When i heard that name,my mind will totally gone blank and soon i will be out of words.Brad just know how to make me feel shitty in the morning which is somehow makes me feel happy.Brad wasn't the type of guy who love to be BGR.That's what i like about him.I think we only need one problematic person in this friendship.I didnt realise that Brad was talking to me.I just see the profile of his face so i thought that he wasn't talking to me.My silence answered his question.He know that i'm pissed.Throughout the journey to school were awkward.Brad just kept quiet while listening to his mp3 and i just glared at people running towards the station bus to chase for the bus.We never really went this silent,for this long before.I guess i'm not in the mood to talk about her with Brad.

The front gate is empty and me and Brad were like the only person in school.Most of the lights were off so it looks haunted.I really wish me and Brad were talking to distract me but the silence kept on.He's still looking disconnected from his surrounding not realising there's a little fear in my eyes.I just tug my back pack tightly and try my best to look at the pavement.We're reaching our classroom soon.Thank god that Brad is still the same class as me because he's the only real friend i have in that pathetic class.Pushing aside my ego,i broke the silence."Crap! Why are we so early?" Brad turns at me.He seems glad that i talked to him.I don't know why i seem so attracted with Brad's face today.I thought he have a pimple at his cheek and a little hair under his chin.But today he looks so perfect.Sometimes i wonder,why does he don't have the desire to be in a relationship.With looks like that,i'll bet he'll be swarming with girls.I think he have lots of admirers and no one seems to have the guts to ask him out.Maybe girls only looks at him whenever we both walk past them.That's a bummer.

"It's 6.50am,what do you expect"he just smiled away.I giggle a little and began to ask him question about why don't he want to be in a relationship. Briefly he said "I don't really need to be in a relationship Alex.I got you as a friend and seriously that already satisfy me.It's not really that fun to be wanted cause you have a lot of expectation and i'm no mr.perfect.Screw up and you get screwed." I felt a little joy that he appreciates me as his friend and that meant a lot to me. Brad words sure made a little impact about my needs of having someone wants you.I began to ponder by myself."Alex! Stop with that silent crap! I'm bored" I soon snap out from my daze.Brad is looking at me.His eyes pierce right through me.I can't help it but to look at him.I just laugh my ass off cause the thought of him realising that,just cracks me up.Brad just laugh eventhough there were no jokes being said.We reached class and i totally forgot about the scary view of the school.Brad seriously did a good job on taking my mind of stuff.I enter the classroom. It's dark and it seems empty.Only the fans were on.Even the lights from the corridor is not enough to lit the whole classroom.I could feel Brad's breath. I starts to have chills. "Switch on the light you moron!" As Brad finishes his last word,i switch on the light. The only person i saw was Steph and Christine sleeping,with their head on the table.It's not surprising as,they were called double-snoozer.They have this eyes that seems disconnected from the universe.They dont seem to care about their studies.All i can see is their long ponytail and bright pink watch on Steph's wrist.I and Brad took a seat on our rusty chair.I just feels like the chair will fall off anytime.

-10.15am-

My eyes could barely open.The strong wind from the fan hits my skin making me feel like i'm in my bed.Brad looks attentive.I can't figure out why is he not bored from listening to the english teacher babbling.The thought of him being a robot seems a likely reason to consider.Slowly,i lay my head on the side of the elbow while my hand is pointing forward.The wind kept on blowing my way and my eyes were about to shut.I could feel Brad is looking at me. But i didn't bother and continue my journey to 'dream land'.Just as my sight darkens and my lids are closing in,the sound of the recess bell woke me up.It felt like a dejavu.Suddenly i have a strong grudge towards alarms.Feeling very tired,i lift up my head and scratch my scalp.Brad and the whole class were busy packing up for recess.Sounds of locker door slamming,pencil box zipping and the screeching of the rusty chair filled the cold classroom."Come on you lazy ass! It's time for recess. She's waiting for you in the canteen." Brad giggled.He seems to emphasise on the word 'she'. Soon i began to understand,who's the 'she' is.Adeline.Today was so dull,it makes me forget the gorgeous girl that i've been admiring for years.My body began to become more energetic and i started to feel excited.My lips started to flip upwards and people look at me as i walk,smiling like a fool.Brad sure knows how to make me feel pumped up.

Standing from a distance,i could see a clear view of the whole canteen.The canteen was a little unpleasant.With the semi-wet floor and the dark marks that could be seen if a student walks on it.The mixture of smell that just makes you curious and a little disgusted.It somehow unseemingly clean.The chairs are tables looks spotless everytime i step into the canteen.Well maybe that could make up for the filthy environment.My eyes scan the canteen searching for her.Brad were walking a few steps behind me.Adeline is nowhere to be seen.Even staring her from far gives me a little satisfaction but today all i can see was her clique and no Adeline.I can't stop saying her name in my head.Adeline,Adeline,Adeline."So you gonna wait the food to come to you?" Brad's sarcasm broke me from my daze again.We sat on our usual table.The one that no one bother to go to which is beside the dumpster.Eventhough the musty stench of expired milk and leftovers could be easily sniffed ,we seems a little happy because seating there gives us oppurnity to talk to each other without getting interupted by the noise.As we were sharing jokes,Jeff and Carl arrive and took a seat beside us. Jeff and Carl are part of Brad's clique.Jeff,Carl and Brad are from the rugby team and they seem to be clicking well.But unfortunately,my presence are not appreciated because i'm a geek and Brad is a jock.Everytime me and Brad are happily doing some shit,they would budge in and mess things up.They will put on this gruesome mask whenever they look at me.Jeff and Carl love to talk crap about me but Brad don't seem to be entertain by it.How i wish i'm a little buff and whack this two morons.Both of them have an athletic body like Brad and i'm small and lean."Brad! What are you doing here with your boyfriend!" Jeff said with his low and deep voice.He sounded like a man,very mature.I wonder why he's still 15 years old when he sounded like a homeless 25 year old dude. "Don't be a dumbass,you moron!" Brad said being very defensive.Jeff and Carl just laugh maniacally. I was trying my best to stay away from them but Brad is my friend too and i think this are some of the sacrifices i must make to be friend with him. "So Brad,you wanna tag along today with us? We're going to my house to chill" Carl said. I've been to his house before,when he invited us for his 14 birthday party. Carl have an awesome crib. He lives in a two storey bungalow and his house is freaking big and cosy. It's a place to die for. Brad would be a fool not to accept it. "Ermm...i'm not sure...i was thinking to crash in Alex's crib to start on our English assignment" I was surprised,well,actually i was surprised that we have an english assignment and i don't know anything about it and Brad rejected the invitation to study with me. "Don't be a moron Brad.Come on,you can start that shit tommorow with her.Oops...i mean....with him." Jeff and Carl laughed.I was about to slice their face with my nametag."Whatever you assholes" Brad just seats there playing with his food. He seems a little disturbed but he did nothing. My blood level seems to rise out of my head. The rage within me seems to be burning up inside. But i know punching them won't help anything,in fact,i might get suspended. The possible options at that point of time,is to leave.Well that is what i did. Brad seem surprise when i left but the laughter that keeps going on just makes me feel less guilty. I know i shouldnt have left Brad just like that but its either that or slicing of the face.My heart was still burning up from that incident.I was not in the mood to talk.Just as i was about to left the canteen,someone grabbed me by my wrist.My stopped for a moment.My heart really want the person to be Brad or Adeline.But Adeline don't even know me so it must be Brad.

When i turn around,it was not who i expected.I don't even know who she is but she looks very serious.I could see her intense eyes and a face that shows no emotion other than anger.She seems pissed.I was completely shock and nervous at the same time.She is still gripping my hand firmly and it started to feel a litte painful.I shake my hand off her's. Her grip loosen and my hand were free. Gently,i massage my wrist while still looking in her eyes.She began to open her mouth.

"I know you hate those two jerks"

"Who are you talking about?" i said,acting oblivious

"Don't act dumb Alex.You know who am i talking about" When she said my name,my heart almost fell.

"Who are you and why don't you mind your own business?"

"Erm sorry for my rude introduction.My name is Ivana,i'm from class 3/4"

"How do you know me?" There is a slight fear on my face that is visible to Ivana.

"Well you're Alex.You're a librarian and lives at Shafmore street" The conversation starts to get creepy.

"How do you know that?! Who are you anyway?"

"Like i said,i know you hate those jerks.So if you wanna plot a revenge with me,feel free to call me"

She walks off after slipping in a slip of paper on my palm.My curiosity began to play in my head.I almost forget how beautiful she looks and a pleasant smell that she have.I stood there watching her walk away.Part of me want to run to her and force her to tell the truth.She seems very humble and timid. Looks a little like Adeline.How i wish the person that talked to me just now and held my hand was Adeline.I really hope to see her silky hair and warm smile tommorow.After that conversation with Ivana and the feud with me and Jeff and Carl , i went back to class to begin with my last 4 period. Brad wasn't in the 4 of them so i try to isolate myself from the fucked up students in my class. I had a big sigh.I really wish that Brad were sitting beside me now and making crappy jokes that i couldnt understand.I miss seeing his face eventhough it's only have been few minutes. I starting to wonder why didnt Brad stopped me from leaving.Why did he do nothing? The feeling of anger started to overcome me. I just stared at the friendship band that Brad gave to me on my 13 birthday.I feel like riping it off. The beast within me starts to back down a little and my anger became a devastating sadness. I just lay my head down and hope today would end.

-2.45pm-

I quickly grab my beg and leave the cold classroom as quickly as possible.I try my best to avoid Brad.I don't know why but i feel like i should be away from him somehow.I left the classroom. Cautiously,i walk towards the gate. The exit were teeming with people who were rushing to get home. Somehow i can relate to them.I was quite pissed off that Brad is still not here,leaving me alone by myself.Well actually i'm trying to avoid him but i'm hoping for a twist of fate. The heat,heats up my black hair and walking home is really not the best idea at that time.Taking out my wallet,i search for change to ride the bus.I left my ez-link at home because i thought i was gonna walk home with Brad.My finger dug into the wallet like a wild dog scavenging for food.I'm not gonna go home all sweaty and stinky.All i got is 35cents.Damn it,i should have brought my ez-link.As i look down at my wallet, i saw a familiar hand.It seems that the person is handing out spare change for me.I plan not to look up but eventually i did.It was Ivana.She look at me with her glistening eyes that looks like a puddle in a sunny day.Her face were very smooth like velvet and i saw her teeth were pearly white as she smiles at me.I felt a little safe when i saw her.She seems very sincere."Here you go! Take how much that you need." Her voice were so angelic and very serene.I never notice all of the beauty,when she was in the canteen.Well she still doesnt look as good as Adeline but she have a sincerity that i never saw in Adeline. Blushing,i took a 20cent coins out of her hand.I gave her a slight smile eventhough i still doesnt know her. "How bout taking the bus with me?I live in Jamere street which is near Shafmore." I was about to say "get the fuck away from me you stalker" but instead i said "Yeah sure."I still doesn't know what is Ivana intention is but i try my best to stay vigilant. I kept on staring at my phone.Why hasn't he call me yet? Have he somehow forgotten what happen during recess? Ivana saw me holding on to my phone. She kept looking at me from the corner of the eye whenever i check my phone.Why am I still walking with a so called stalker? But being accompanied with someone i don't know seems to be awkward and pleasant in a weird way.

We reached the station bus.There were still a little silence between us but Ivana try her best to make it feel less awkward by asking strange question.
"You like any girl in school in particular" My heart skipped and i answer briefly "Maybe" Ivana just smirked and look at the opposite station bus."I know who you love Alex.It's that girl,Adeline from class 3/2." My mind suddenly went blank.I was getting so scared.How did she know that.Who is she? I was almost about to run a million kilometre away from her.I'm starting to think that she's psychic.She chuckled. "I wouldnt be surprise if you like her and i wouldn't be surprise if she likes you" I almost fainted when she finished that sentence.Chills went down my spine. My leg started to feel a little wobbly. I began to sweat. I kept on staring at the empty road to avoid looking at her.Who is Ivana?