Never Thought Part 2

Sorry this was a little shorter than the previous one,but i will continue more on the next part.

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I began to tremble.I felt my heart stop for a quick second.My breathing began to quicken.The fear in my eyes is able to be seen like an open door. Ivana just looking very calm."Why you get all sweaty? It's just a hunch."She giggled.Somehow she was able to speak out my secrets like there was a teleprompter on my head.My face started to glisten with my own sweat.Ivana,kept on looking at the empty road.She have this scary smile on her face as if she know everything about me.Maybe the next thing she will say is "I know you're jealous because Brad rather spent time with those moron rather than you" The fear that roam around my body like an angry beast began to back down.Suddenly,Brad was all i could think of.Why did Brad left me like that.Does he felt guilty of what he did not do.Why hasn't he call me.The devastation i felt hours ago,seems to haunt me again.I beginning to forget that Ivana is standing right beside me.The way Brad just sat there and watch me get verbally abuse really cuts me deep.Forget about this stalker for awhile. I think i should rather be more concern on Brad rather than this psycho beside me.There were no movement between me and Ivana.We were just standing at the bus stop like a stone under medusa's curse. All the student just walk by us and both of us seems not to care. I look to the left side of the road,hoping to see bus.Usually they are only 15 minutes late but standing beside Ivana makes it feel i've been standing there for hours. I began to wipe off my sweats and reach for my change that Ivana gave me.Without noticing,i accidently touch my side pocket and felt a vibration.I panicked a little.Quickly,i took out my phone from my pocket and stare at the screen. My head went blank when i saw who's calling me.

It was Jeff.Out of everyone in the whole entire world,why is it Jeff.Ivana turn her head towards me and say "You should answer that" Even i wasn't afraid of her anymore,her words still gave me chills.Ivana's bright and beautiful eyes stared at me for a moment and look away.Without hesitation,i answer the phone.

"Ermm...why are you calling?" My voice sounds a little nervous.

"Wow and they say i'm the jerk" His manly voice began to make me feel more nervous.

"What do you want? Haven't insult me enough" The feeling of anger and anxiousness began to collide making my voice sounds weird.

"....Erm....Yeah, about that i'm sorry.I just felt a little bored...No hard feelings...?"

"You,Jeff Coleman,seeking for forgiveness.This must be a prank.If it is,then you doing a great job."

"Fuck it! I try to be nice and you piss me off! Fuck you Alex! I just wanna deliver a message from Brad,he said he'll be meeting you at the station bus in 15 minutes time. His phone died. No need to thank me you moron!"

After finishing his sentence,quickly he hung up.The guilty is starting to devour me.I could feel a sincerity in Jeff and i just didn't know how to react. But the fact is,Jeff has been kicking me in the ass for 3 years and how am i suppose to know he had change with one phonecall.Imagine,someone that tore my PE pants that i left in the class and steal my Chemistry textbook and give back with only 20 pages in it,could somehow become very humble and mellow all of a sudden.It's far beyong impossible.I start to feel less guilty compared on what he did to me. Maybe he deserved that. Maybe he doesn't. After that phone call,i wipe off my sweat on the screen and slide my phone back in my pocket. I was forgetting that there was someone beside me.Someone who i fear.When i turn to the right,Ivana was on the phone too.Her lips looks amazing and almost too perfect.I only overheard the word "home" because her voice was very soft making it hard to hear. She didnt realise i was looking at her. Her sweet scent seems to vanish. I have a good sense of smell.Usually i could smell my mom's Gucci perfume from a distance.Smells usually intrigues me cause it describe how aware you are. I usually spray a little cologne before going to school. It seems pathetic but it doesnt hurt to smell good.Ivana is still on the phone. I'm waiting impatiently for the bus.Tapping my foot and looking at my watch is the most obvious sign of a person being very anxious.Ivana has ended her conversation.She look very pissed.The sadness on her face is so heart-breaking.When i look at her face,it reminded me of Snow,my dead cat.Snow had cancer and eventually he died when i was 11 years old.I still can feel the sorrow that i felt four years ago.I try my best to make my self sounds very sympathetic,"You alright?" I felt a strong urge to move closer to her. She saw me moving nearer to her but she didnt seem to care. "Yeah...I'm alright..."

"Come on,you don't look alright to me."

"I said i'm fine.Why should you care about me?! You should be more concern about that 'innocent' girl,Adeline!"

"...What....what....are you saying?" all confused.

"Sorry...Just leave me alone..." her voice began to tremble.

The bus arrived as if this was all planned.I don't why,but i felt a little guilty.I saw her eyes getting puffy.Just as the bus stops,she walk quickly as if i was about to eat her up.This girl,Ivana Skyler,just love to mess up my mind with her weird actions.I was about to call her on the phone when the bus left.As i was about to fulfill my intention, i heard the most melodious voice coming from the back.It sounds very familiar.It just wasn't me to forget the voice and a very familiar scent.I turn around and it was Brad standing infront of me.My mind just went blank when i saw him.He looks a little sloppy with his shirt tucked out. I am so glad to see his warm smile again.He have the most perfect set of teeth that i ever saw.His dimple and bright smile,makes him look like a model.I cant believe that i missed someone badly when i only didn't see them for a few hours. He broke the silence,

"Hey..."

"Erm...hi."

"...So you got any plans tonight?"

"Not sure.I think i'm pretty much free."

"Awesome.Meet me at the usual place at 7.30"

"Yeah sure..."

He gave me a friendly pat on the shoulder while staring at me with his piercing eyes.He smile and walk off.I just stood there for a moment and smile to myself.Why didn't i felt the strong anger towards Brad like before? Why didn't i scream my lungs out about what he did to me at the canteen? Brad,Brad,Brad you just know what to do when you did something wrong.Show me that innocent eyes and giving me a captivating smile.I began to forgive him.It seems odd to forgive someone without the person saying sorry.But Brad is different from everyone.He is the most kind person i ever met in my life.He usually switch my homework with his to cover my sorry ass from getting detention.If i forgot to bring my lunch money,Brad will seat with me in class and treat me after school. And i never forget the day he save me from getting screwed by a group of gangsters wanna-be.No matter how bad the situation is,i can never hold a grudge towards Brad.The scorching sun was soon covered by a big cloud causing the day to be shady. A gust of wind followed by dried leaves dragging along the sidewalk making strange noises.I just walk away from the station bus and decided to walk home

-7.03pm-

I am still at home getting ready to meet Brad.We're going to our usual place,the small shady area near the playground.We've been hanging out there for 3 years.We just love the peaceful silence and the panoramic view of the sky. It's the most confortable place to share our problems and secrets. It may seems corny but it work for us.Well we rarely share our problems,usually 'i' will be the one shares it.The laugh we had and the joy of being there really means alot to us.I decided to slip on something simple like my t-shirt and jeans.My hair is still dripping from the cold water.I'm run around the house searching for my phone.I have the feeling that Brad has already on his way there.I started to panic.My mom starts to nag at me because it was suppose to be dinner night;it's when my parents and me have dinner together.As much as i hate to miss that,i just don't want to miss the chance of knowing why did Brad didn't do anything during recess.I couldn't take my eyes of the wall clock.Every tick that it makes,makes panic even more. Soon my phone began to ring.I hate it when i'm panicking and the phone rings at the same time.It's just a sign showing that something bad is going to happen.I reach into my jeans and saw a number that i haven't yet save in my phone.The number looks very familiar.Somehow i know i've seen before. I quickly answer the phone.My breathing quickens."Hello?" my voice seems to be the only one to be heard.

"......Hello....Alex? ....it's me"

"Alex here.May i know who is this?"

"....It's me...Ivana...." my jaw dropped to the ground.

"Ohhh."

"Can i meet you for awhile? I got something to tell you"

"I'm kinda,in a hurry."

"....Oh...then meet me at your void deck.Now.I'm here."

"What are you doing under my..."

Just as i was about to ask her,she hung up.Now,Ivana starting to sound scary.First,she know my secrets,second,she know where i live and now she knows the exact block that i lived in.I just stood in the middle of the living room staring at nothing.My mind went blank.All i could think of is who's Ivana? Who's Ivana? Who's Ivana? How does she know everything about me when i only know her name and where she lives? The long needle is pointing 7 and the shorter is pointing 3.I'm going to be late.Without thinking,i rush down to my void deck.While running down the stairs,i kept thinking about Ivana.Like i said,living on the ninth storey and having someone waiting for you,is such an inconvenience.2nd storey,I can almost see the ground floor.As i approach the last flight of stairs,i saw Ivana waiting for me at the end of it.She were crossing her hands and leaning on the white painted railings.She have a beautiful jet black hair.Almost looks like Adeline's.Her long silky hair covered half of her face.Only her nose and chin were visible. She just stood there like a mannequin.The only thing moving were her hair.I climb down the stairs slowly.I was only inches away from her.She turn around and look at me directly in the eyes.

"Glad you came.Can we sit for a moment?"

"Yeah sure.Make it quick,i have something on,"trying my best not to sound rude.

"....The reason i called you here....i just wanna...apologise,for what happen just now."

"Oh about that.Well i'm just a little shocked.Would you mind telling what happen? If it's ok with you."

"......Alex.....I think you should know....Well i'm..."

Ring goes my phone,the grudge with me and alarms still had not rest.Ivana was about to mention something that may sound very important and could be the answer to everything that's going on but i chose picking up a phone rather than that.Ivana seems pissed off by my action and just stare at me with her magnificent face.Before answering the phone,i check my watch to find out that it was 7.38 pm.It's starting to be a habit for me to be late.I press the answer button without looking at the caller id."Hello" i began the conversation.

"Hello...Alex...Help me! I think i can't hold on any longer!....Hurry up! Help me Alex..."

"Hello! Hello! Brad! Brad! ....Hang on! Gosh! What's happening Brad?!" i was screaming on the phone.

The call ended and Brad left me almost in tears.The word 'death' was the only thing left in my mind.Every single word he said is like a sword stabbing through me.Brad can't die,he can't.He's the only person in the world that could understand every single thing i experienced in life.Losing him will be like losing a big piece of my heart.I stood absolutely still and without noticing,my eyes started to pour out tears.I was too devastated by the major news that my soft cry turns to a loud mourn.How can he die like that? Don't he know i need him? No Brad,don't leave me just like that. Every single breath i took just makes it worst.I will trade anything, and i mean anything for Brad to live once again.I can't imagine going there and looking at a corpse that once were my best friend. Now,my tears started to trickle on my clothes.I can't believe how much i am crying now.Wrath and devastation collides in my brain causing a vortex.My body stood cold and i didn't care about the people passing by me.I must try my best to save Brad,i must. Brad was a brother that i never had.We share laughters and joy. Talk about nonsense at the canteen and have a good laugh whenever we left the canteen.Brad never fails to make me cheerful in school.He's like the blood in my veins and arteries.How i really wish i could see him alive and this was all a joke.Swiftly,i turned around and i run as fast as i could,leaving everything behind me,even forgetting what Ivana going to say to me.Right now,at this moment,no other thing matters other than Brad.Brad, i need you,hang on i'm coming.