Never Thought 1 :]

ok like i said i'm gonna make a online story.In fact i did. I got approval from my bestie to see if it was good and she seems to enjoy it.So i wanna see how this goes.Enjoy the first part:]
[UBER UBER SORRY IF MY GRAMMAR AND USES OF VOCAB SUX]

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There she was standing infront of me.I could feel her cold breath on my lips.Her chest were close enough to feel her heartbeat.The more close we get,the faster it beat.My heart started to race as she gaze upon me.I'm starting to feel confuse.Is she real?Her piercing black eyes,long raven hair with a neat lock of fringe and luminescence skin makes it feel unreal.It was just to good to be true.I thought i don't ever existed in her life.I can't believe it the girl i admired since Sec 1 standing so close to me.This is by far the closest.I touched her actually but that was by accidet,and still she doesnt know i'm alive.Her soft cheek slides gently on mine and she whispered "you know i've been waiting for this for quite awhile". Her low and calm voice intrigues me and my body starts to heat up.For the first time i felt intimidated to a girl and the ironic thing is,she is the one that i fantasised to be a lover with.I felt insecure.Her hand soon were roaming on my back.My Bossini t-shirt soon were crumpled as she drags her long nails across my back.Somehow,it felt seductive rather than pain.I can't help it but to be slave under her seductive clutch.My breathing gets shorter by the moment.Soon her enchanting face is all the eye can see.That full and pouting lips,makes me go crazy on the inside.Usually lipgloss 'was' a turned off for me but tonight it's an acception.She grinned and say lowly "Don't worry.No one's looking." Her lips were so close to mine.I could smell the sweet-scented strawberry lipgloss of hers.Her eyes soon were lock shut and her lips move towards mine.My mind were going to explode when i saw what she was gonna do.I can't believe it,the girl i've been admiring about for 3 years has finally acknowledge my existance and that girl is about to kiss me. I move towards her lips when suddenly a loud buzz break the silence.

My eyes popped open and i was in the verge of killing someone.She was about to kiss me goddamn it.I really was pissed.Fucked up,i threw the alarm clock.Actually i aim for the laundry basket to avoid waking my parents up.Reluctantly,i get off bed quicker than i thought.Well having that dream just make me so pumped up to see her face again.I wonder if the dream gonna came true.If it does,i will....i don't know i never thought i can go that far.My parent were sound asleep and glad that they are.Usually they went all Aunt Flow on me after received their bills the previous day.Quietly,i move to the toilet. I look in the mirror for a moment.I don't know what's wrong with me today but suddenly got the urge to stare at myself.I observe my hair.It still bothers me when i see my hair looks way better before i took a shower.Kinda fucked up.Makes me feel not to shower for the whole year.I face the shower and let the warm water flow down my body.After getting ready,i called Brad,my best friend since the Sec 1 orientation camp.He was the only person i depend on in secondary life.Smart,good-looking,funny and a crackhead like me,perfect enough to be my best friend.Well we do fight but somehow the friendship we had will clean up the shitty mess.I'm just glad that he's around to help me with the 'crush' crap.Like,who's the only peron in the world will listen to me talk non-stop about a girl.I started to giggle by myself not realising the phone is ringing."Hey Alex,where the fuck are you! I've been sitting down here watching bus go by for 15 minutes! Hurry up man! Get your ass down here quick!"Brad said loudly.That guy almost broke my eardrum.I ran down the stairs quick.It is such a inconvenience to live on the nine story and be late while a friend is waiting.I was panting cause the last time i ran was from a dog and it was two days ago.3rd story,sweats started to drip a little bit.I stopped for a moment to catch my breath.I really should follow Brad jogging sometimes.But, sweating is just wrong for me.I began to ran and without realising i stumbled upon a girl.She was wearing a blue uniform so i assume she wasnt in the same school as me.I almost hit her like a truck and a gonna-be roadkill."Oh im so sorry.I'm in the rush." She just smile and walk up the stairs. I never seen her before. She looks very charming with her ponytail and her dashing smile. I almost want to ask her name but that impatient moron is waiting for me downstairs. I slowly walked down the stairs and i know she's looking at me from the corner of the eye. Ground floor,there's that moron is sitting at the bench with his mp3 on,looking aloof towards his surrounding.He turned at me with his dark eyes,looking at me like he was about to tear me limb to limb.Brad looks suave with his coiffed hair and his flawless skin.I almost thought that Brad is a robot because he looks too perfect today. He walk towards and we walk to school.

"So what time you went to bed last night?" Brad ask me while his eyes were staring at my messy hair because i just ran.

"Ermm...like about 10.30 or somewhere around there.Fuck,stop looking at my hair.I ran because of you moron."

"Aww i'm touched"

"Fuck off Brad" i chuckled

"Hahahaha! So how's your girlfriend?" he ask sacarstically.

"Crap,i don't have a girlfriend!"

"Then what about,you know,Adeline,the girl from class 3\2?" a smirked began to be seen on his bright face.

When i heard that name,my mind will totally gone blank and soon i will be out of words.Brad just know how to make me feel shitty in the morning which is somehow makes me feel happy.Brad wasn't the type of guy who love to be BGR.That's what i like about him.I think we only need one problematic person in this friendship.I didnt realise that Brad was talking to me.I just see the profile of his face so i thought that he wasn't talking to me.My silence answered his question.He know that i'm pissed.Throughout the journey to school were awkward.Brad just kept quiet while listening to his mp3 and i just glared at people running towards the station bus to chase for the bus.We never really went this silent,for this long before.I guess i'm not in the mood to talk about her with Brad.

The front gate is empty and me and Brad were like the only person in school.Most of the lights were off so it looks haunted.I really wish me and Brad were talking to distract me but the silence kept on.He's still looking disconnected from his surrounding not realising there's a little fear in my eyes.I just tug my back pack tightly and try my best to look at the pavement.We're reaching our classroom soon.Thank god that Brad is still the same class as me because he's the only real friend i have in that pathetic class.Pushing aside my ego,i broke the silence."Crap! Why are we so early?" Brad turns at me.He seems glad that i talked to him.I don't know why i seem so attracted with Brad's face today.I thought he have a pimple at his cheek and a little hair under his chin.But today he looks so perfect.Sometimes i wonder,why does he don't have the desire to be in a relationship.With looks like that,i'll bet he'll be swarming with girls.I think he have lots of admirers and no one seems to have the guts to ask him out.Maybe girls only looks at him whenever we both walk past them.That's a bummer.

"It's 6.50am,what do you expect"he just smiled away.I giggle a little and began to ask him question about why don't he want to be in a relationship. Briefly he said "I don't really need to be in a relationship Alex.I got you as a friend and seriously that already satisfy me.It's not really that fun to be wanted cause you have a lot of expectation and i'm no mr.perfect.Screw up and you get screwed." I felt a little joy that he appreciates me as his friend and that meant a lot to me. Brad words sure made a little impact about my needs of having someone wants you.I began to ponder by myself."Alex! Stop with that silent crap! I'm bored" I soon snap out from my daze.Brad is looking at me.His eyes pierce right through me.I can't help it but to look at him.I just laugh my ass off cause the thought of him realising that,just cracks me up.Brad just laugh eventhough there were no jokes being said.We reached class and i totally forgot about the scary view of the school.Brad seriously did a good job on taking my mind of stuff.I enter the classroom. It's dark and it seems empty.Only the fans were on.Even the lights from the corridor is not enough to lit the whole classroom.I could feel Brad's breath. I starts to have chills. "Switch on the light you moron!" As Brad finishes his last word,i switch on the light. The only person i saw was Steph and Christine sleeping,with their head on the table.It's not surprising as,they were called double-snoozer.They have this eyes that seems disconnected from the universe.They dont seem to care about their studies.All i can see is their long ponytail and bright pink watch on Steph's wrist.I and Brad took a seat on our rusty chair.I just feels like the chair will fall off anytime.

-10.15am-

My eyes could barely open.The strong wind from the fan hits my skin making me feel like i'm in my bed.Brad looks attentive.I can't figure out why is he not bored from listening to the english teacher babbling.The thought of him being a robot seems a likely reason to consider.Slowly,i lay my head on the side of the elbow while my hand is pointing forward.The wind kept on blowing my way and my eyes were about to shut.I could feel Brad is looking at me. But i didn't bother and continue my journey to 'dream land'.Just as my sight darkens and my lids are closing in,the sound of the recess bell woke me up.It felt like a dejavu.Suddenly i have a strong grudge towards alarms.Feeling very tired,i lift up my head and scratch my scalp.Brad and the whole class were busy packing up for recess.Sounds of locker door slamming,pencil box zipping and the screeching of the rusty chair filled the cold classroom."Come on you lazy ass! It's time for recess. She's waiting for you in the canteen." Brad giggled.He seems to emphasise on the word 'she'. Soon i began to understand,who's the 'she' is.Adeline.Today was so dull,it makes me forget the gorgeous girl that i've been admiring for years.My body began to become more energetic and i started to feel excited.My lips started to flip upwards and people look at me as i walk,smiling like a fool.Brad sure knows how to make me feel pumped up.

Standing from a distance,i could see a clear view of the whole canteen.The canteen was a little unpleasant.With the semi-wet floor and the dark marks that could be seen if a student walks on it.The mixture of smell that just makes you curious and a little disgusted.It somehow unseemingly clean.The chairs are tables looks spotless everytime i step into the canteen.Well maybe that could make up for the filthy environment.My eyes scan the canteen searching for her.Brad were walking a few steps behind me.Adeline is nowhere to be seen.Even staring her from far gives me a little satisfaction but today all i can see was her clique and no Adeline.I can't stop saying her name in my head.Adeline,Adeline,Adeline."So you gonna wait the food to come to you?" Brad's sarcasm broke me from my daze again.We sat on our usual table.The one that no one bother to go to which is beside the dumpster.Eventhough the musty stench of expired milk and leftovers could be easily sniffed ,we seems a little happy because seating there gives us oppurnity to talk to each other without getting interupted by the noise.As we were sharing jokes,Jeff and Carl arrive and took a seat beside us. Jeff and Carl are part of Brad's clique.Jeff,Carl and Brad are from the rugby team and they seem to be clicking well.But unfortunately,my presence are not appreciated because i'm a geek and Brad is a jock.Everytime me and Brad are happily doing some shit,they would budge in and mess things up.They will put on this gruesome mask whenever they look at me.Jeff and Carl love to talk crap about me but Brad don't seem to be entertain by it.How i wish i'm a little buff and whack this two morons.Both of them have an athletic body like Brad and i'm small and lean."Brad! What are you doing here with your boyfriend!" Jeff said with his low and deep voice.He sounded like a man,very mature.I wonder why he's still 15 years old when he sounded like a homeless 25 year old dude. "Don't be a dumbass,you moron!" Brad said being very defensive.Jeff and Carl just laugh maniacally. I was trying my best to stay away from them but Brad is my friend too and i think this are some of the sacrifices i must make to be friend with him. "So Brad,you wanna tag along today with us? We're going to my house to chill" Carl said. I've been to his house before,when he invited us for his 14 birthday party. Carl have an awesome crib. He lives in a two storey bungalow and his house is freaking big and cosy. It's a place to die for. Brad would be a fool not to accept it. "Ermm...i'm not sure...i was thinking to crash in Alex's crib to start on our English assignment" I was surprised,well,actually i was surprised that we have an english assignment and i don't know anything about it and Brad rejected the invitation to study with me. "Don't be a moron Brad.Come on,you can start that shit tommorow with her.Oops...i mean....with him." Jeff and Carl laughed.I was about to slice their face with my nametag."Whatever you assholes" Brad just seats there playing with his food. He seems a little disturbed but he did nothing. My blood level seems to rise out of my head. The rage within me seems to be burning up inside. But i know punching them won't help anything,in fact,i might get suspended. The possible options at that point of time,is to leave.Well that is what i did. Brad seem surprise when i left but the laughter that keeps going on just makes me feel less guilty. I know i shouldnt have left Brad just like that but its either that or slicing of the face.My heart was still burning up from that incident.I was not in the mood to talk.Just as i was about to left the canteen,someone grabbed me by my wrist.My stopped for a moment.My heart really want the person to be Brad or Adeline.But Adeline don't even know me so it must be Brad.

When i turn around,it was not who i expected.I don't even know who she is but she looks very serious.I could see her intense eyes and a face that shows no emotion other than anger.She seems pissed.I was completely shock and nervous at the same time.She is still gripping my hand firmly and it started to feel a litte painful.I shake my hand off her's. Her grip loosen and my hand were free. Gently,i massage my wrist while still looking in her eyes.She began to open her mouth.

"I know you hate those two jerks"

"Who are you talking about?" i said,acting oblivious

"Don't act dumb Alex.You know who am i talking about" When she said my name,my heart almost fell.

"Who are you and why don't you mind your own business?"

"Erm sorry for my rude introduction.My name is Ivana,i'm from class 3/4"

"How do you know me?" There is a slight fear on my face that is visible to Ivana.

"Well you're Alex.You're a librarian and lives at Shafmore street" The conversation starts to get creepy.

"How do you know that?! Who are you anyway?"

"Like i said,i know you hate those jerks.So if you wanna plot a revenge with me,feel free to call me"

She walks off after slipping in a slip of paper on my palm.My curiosity began to play in my head.I almost forget how beautiful she looks and a pleasant smell that she have.I stood there watching her walk away.Part of me want to run to her and force her to tell the truth.She seems very humble and timid. Looks a little like Adeline.How i wish the person that talked to me just now and held my hand was Adeline.I really hope to see her silky hair and warm smile tommorow.After that conversation with Ivana and the feud with me and Jeff and Carl , i went back to class to begin with my last 4 period. Brad wasn't in the 4 of them so i try to isolate myself from the fucked up students in my class. I had a big sigh.I really wish that Brad were sitting beside me now and making crappy jokes that i couldnt understand.I miss seeing his face eventhough it's only have been few minutes. I starting to wonder why didnt Brad stopped me from leaving.Why did he do nothing? The feeling of anger started to overcome me. I just stared at the friendship band that Brad gave to me on my 13 birthday.I feel like riping it off. The beast within me starts to back down a little and my anger became a devastating sadness. I just lay my head down and hope today would end.

-2.45pm-

I quickly grab my beg and leave the cold classroom as quickly as possible.I try my best to avoid Brad.I don't know why but i feel like i should be away from him somehow.I left the classroom. Cautiously,i walk towards the gate. The exit were teeming with people who were rushing to get home. Somehow i can relate to them.I was quite pissed off that Brad is still not here,leaving me alone by myself.Well actually i'm trying to avoid him but i'm hoping for a twist of fate. The heat,heats up my black hair and walking home is really not the best idea at that time.Taking out my wallet,i search for change to ride the bus.I left my ez-link at home because i thought i was gonna walk home with Brad.My finger dug into the wallet like a wild dog scavenging for food.I'm not gonna go home all sweaty and stinky.All i got is 35cents.Damn it,i should have brought my ez-link.As i look down at my wallet, i saw a familiar hand.It seems that the person is handing out spare change for me.I plan not to look up but eventually i did.It was Ivana.She look at me with her glistening eyes that looks like a puddle in a sunny day.Her face were very smooth like velvet and i saw her teeth were pearly white as she smiles at me.I felt a little safe when i saw her.She seems very sincere."Here you go! Take how much that you need." Her voice were so angelic and very serene.I never notice all of the beauty,when she was in the canteen.Well she still doesnt look as good as Adeline but she have a sincerity that i never saw in Adeline. Blushing,i took a 20cent coins out of her hand.I gave her a slight smile eventhough i still doesnt know her. "How bout taking the bus with me?I live in Jamere street which is near Shafmore." I was about to say "get the fuck away from me you stalker" but instead i said "Yeah sure."I still doesn't know what is Ivana intention is but i try my best to stay vigilant. I kept on staring at my phone.Why hasn't he call me yet? Have he somehow forgotten what happen during recess? Ivana saw me holding on to my phone. She kept looking at me from the corner of the eye whenever i check my phone.Why am I still walking with a so called stalker? But being accompanied with someone i don't know seems to be awkward and pleasant in a weird way.

We reached the station bus.There were still a little silence between us but Ivana try her best to make it feel less awkward by asking strange question.
"You like any girl in school in particular" My heart skipped and i answer briefly "Maybe" Ivana just smirked and look at the opposite station bus."I know who you love Alex.It's that girl,Adeline from class 3/2." My mind suddenly went blank.I was getting so scared.How did she know that.Who is she? I was almost about to run a million kilometre away from her.I'm starting to think that she's psychic.She chuckled. "I wouldnt be surprise if you like her and i wouldn't be surprise if she likes you" I almost fainted when she finished that sentence.Chills went down my spine. My leg started to feel a little wobbly. I began to sweat. I kept on staring at the empty road to avoid looking at her.Who is Ivana?